Since I found out I was pregnant with Violet, I have wanted a second baby.
Part of my reasoning is selfish: I want to experience trying to conceive. I want to look at a pregnancy test with two pink lines and jump around elatedly, not say, “ohmygoodness, ohmygoodness, ohmygoodness,”; I want Jason to jump around with me. I want to tell people I am pregnant, and have them react joyously automatically-not wonder if they should give their condolences. (Though I fully admit to relishing telling people, “I’m knocked up,” and watching them squirm.)
I adore my daughter. After the immediate panic of being a college student in a “regrettable position” receded, I never once thought of my daughter as a burden. By the time I told Jason, I was in love with my unborn child. There is not a single regret about my Little Accident.
In fact, the other reason I want a second baby is for her. Jason grew up an only child, and so he fails to see the draw of siblings. However, most good memories I have involve one of my 2 sisters or my brother. Though there was fighting aplenty while we were young, there is hardly anyone I am closer to now than my sisters. There is a bond between 2 people who grow up together that is unmatched by any other.
That all being said, I recently thought I was With Child. I was nauseated, smell-sensitive, grumpy, sore, and fuzzy brained. I was happy, naturally; the surprising bit was that Jason was also excited. This is an excellent time for us to have another: Violet would be two when the new kid is born; my insurance is excellent at the moment, and I trust my doctors; and my maternity leave would coincide with the time we would like to move down to
Then I got my period yesterday.
We were sad, but something good has come of this. We are throwing ourselves into baby-making. We are taking vitamins, I am cutting out caffeine, and we are going to embark on a whole heck of a lot of marital relations (AKA: 20 Straight Days of Sex.).
So wish us luck, send us fertile thoughts, and I’ll keep ya updated.
*Amy of Amalah has been writing of her babymaking adventures, and Amanda of Kicky Boots just announced her pregnancy.