We have had the name Max picked out for our son since I was pregnant with Violet. When I found out that both Christina Aguilera and Jennifer Lopez named their sons Max, though, I was having second thoughts. We debated names from Gunner to Wyatt to Dean, all with keeping Max at the forefront of our minds.
Saturday night, I had a dream. I saw my son, and he looked at me. "Don't worry, Ma," he said. "And my name is Max."
And so his name is Max.
I had a miscarriage Tuesday morning.
Max is in your hands now, God. Take care of him for me.